Category: Health

  • Today’s 50+ Isn’t Our Parents’ 50+

    There used to be a narrative about turning 50…one that whispered words like slowing down, playing it safe, acting your age, and starting the decline.

    But here’s the truth no one prepared us for: Today’s 50+ women (and men) are rewriting the entire script.

    We’re not shrinking.
    We’re expanding.
    We’re not fading out.
    We’re stepping into our power with more clarity, courage, and conviction than ever before.

    If you’re in your 50s (or approaching them) and feel stronger, wiser, and more “you” than you did in your 30s or 40’s, welcome. You’re part of the new wave of powerful women redefining what midlife really looks like.

    We’re Not Our Parents’ 50 — And We Never Will Be

    Our mothers and grandmothers didn’t have the science, the tools, or the language we have today.

    They didn’t talk openly about:

    • Building muscle as a necessity for longevity
    • Strength training for bone health
    • Hormones, metabolism, and recovery
    • Personalized wellness
    • Reinventing careers at 50
    • Owning their voice
    • Starting new passions and projects

    But we do. And we’re using all of it.

    Today’s 50+ woman is:

    • Running trails, hiking mountains, lifting weights, and taking solo vacations around the world
    • Prioritizing mobility, muscle, and metabolic health
    • Investing in financial freedom and building businesses
    • Taking rest seriously
    • Setting boundaries unapologetically
    • Choosing peace over pressure
    • Refusing to play small

    We’re not chasing youth, we’re chasing our potential.

    The Power of Bioactive Peptides in the 50+ Era

    Let’s be honest: aging today isn’t just mindset. It’s science-backed, too.

    Peptides have become one of the most powerful tools women in their 40s, 50s, 60s and beyond are using to:

    • Boost metabolism
    • Improve body composition
    • Support energy
    • Build and maintain lean muscle
    • Enhance recovery
    • Balance hormones
    • Improve sleep and reduce inflammation

    When I started peptides, it wasn’t about looking younger… it was about supporting my future self. The one who wants to run with dogs, chase big ideas, live active, be independent, say yes to adventure, and have the strength to do it for decades.

    They’ve become part of my longevity toolkit…not a magic fix, but a strategic support for how I want to age forward, not backward.

    If you’re curious about peptides or want guidance on where to start (Let’s talk!), this is the time to lean into education and community instead of guessing alone.

    Aging With Intention, Not Limitation

    Today’s 50+ is bold.
    Curious.
    Expansive.
    Driven.
    Soft in the right places and strong in all the places that matter.

    We’re not defined by age. We’re defined by the choices we make in this season:

    ✨ Choosing muscle
    ✨ Choosing nourishment
    ✨ Choosing mental clarity
    ✨ Choosing movement
    ✨ Choosing purpose-driven work
    ✨ Choosing friendships that fuel us
    ✨ Choosing joy
    ✨ Choosing to stop apologizing for taking up space

    We are not “over the hill.” We ARE the hill — and we’re climbing it with strength, stamina, and a fire that refuses to burn out.

    Here’s a Journal Prompt for You This Week.

    “What do I want the next decade of my life to feel like, and what choices can I start making today to support that version of me?”

    Sit with it. Write freely. Be honest with yourself.

    The answers may surprise you, and they may just shift your entire direction.

    Your next chapter is calling, loudly. And it’s going to be your strongest one yet.

    Live Boldly,

    Denise xo

  • A Love Letter of Gratitude

    As we head into a season built around gratitude, I want to pause for a moment and send a heartfelt thank you to you — the incredible community that continues to support my blog, my work, and the pieces of my life I choose to share.

    This year has stretched me, strengthened me, and reminded me how much there is to be grateful for. Healing from my ankle break taught me patience, resilience, and the power of simply putting one foot in front of the other, literally and emotionally. It reminded me how strong the human body is, and how much stronger we become when we give ourselves grace.

    I’m so deeply grateful for my health, even when it challenged me.
    I’m grateful for my family, who love me through every high and low.
    I’m grateful for friends who show up, check in, lift me up, and always make me laugh. And I’m endlessly grateful for this community…for your encouragement, your curiosity, your messages, and your willingness to join me in conversations about wellness, growth, and living with intention.

    Your support means more than you know. Every read, every share, every reply… it all reminds me why I write and why connection matters so much.

    Thank you for being here.
    Thank you for letting me share my world with you.
    And thank you for walking this journey with me — through healing, through evolving, and through every season of life.

    I wish you a season filled with joy, love, and simplicity.

    From my heart to yours,
    Denise

  • Don’t Go Into the Holidays Without a Plan!

    Every year, the holiday season sneaks up on us faster than we think. One minute it’s pumpkin spice latte’s and cozy sweaters… and the next, you’re surrounded by office candy bowls, holiday parties, rich dinners, extra cocktails, and endless baked goods.

    It’s fun…until it’s not.

    Because here’s the truth:
    Most people enter the holidays with zero strategy.
    No plan. No boundaries. No support system.

    And that’s when things start to unravel.

    Gym sessions get skipped.
    Late nights become the norm.
    Energy plummets.
    Healthy habits fade.

    And by the time January 1st arrives, instead of feeling refreshed, most people feel frustrated, facing the dreaded holiday weight gain (fact: the average person gains up to 10 pounds…yikes!).

    But this year CAN be different.

    You can enjoy the holidays.
    You can stay consistent.
    You can go into January feeling strong, not defeated.

    All you need is a plan.


    The No. 1 Reason People Struggle During the Holidays: They Don’t Have a Plan

    When you don’t have a plan, the season controls you.
    When you do have a plan, you stay in control.

    A good holiday plan doesn’t have to be complicated, it just has to be intentional and realistic.

    Below is a simple structure you can start using today.


    🎄 Your Holiday Survival Plan

    1. Non-Negotiables (Pick 3)

    These are the habits you protect no matter what.
    Choose three and commit.

    Examples:

    • 30 minutes of movement 4–5 days a week
    • A protein-focused first meal
    • Water before every holiday drink
    • 8,000–10,000 steps
    • No “grazing” on office candy bowls
    • Lights out by 10pm on weeknights

    These anchor you during the chaos.


    2. Pre-Plan Your Weak Spots

    Look at your next 6-8 weeks:

    • Office parties
    • Family dinners
    • Travel
    • Cookie swaps
    • Social events

    Then decide ahead of time:

    • What will you eat first? (Hint: protein + veggies)
    • How many drinks will you have?
    • Will you walk before or after the event?

    Decisions made before the moment equal better outcomes in the moment.


    3. Use Supportive Tools (This Is Where Peptides Come In…and, I swear by them)

    You don’t have to rely on willpower alone, especially during the most tempting season of the year.

    Bioactive peptides offer science-backed support to help your body stay balanced, energized, and regulated.

    ✅ Lean — “Nature’s Ozempic”

    Controls cravings, steadies appetite, and reduces overeating triggers.

    ✅ Hydrated — All-Day Electrolyte + Hydration Support

    Winter = dehydration. Hydrated keeps your energy steady and inflammation down.

    ✅ Fit — Daily Metabolic + NAD+ Support

    Boosts energy, lowers cortisol, and supports recovery, exactly what your body needs during holiday stress.

    Together, these three give you:

    • Less inflammation
    • Better metabolic balance
    • Fewer cravings
    • More energy
    • Better hydration
    • Controlled stress response

    A huge advantage during a season of indulgence.


    4. Build Your Week Around Movement (Not the Other Way Around)

    Instead of “fitting in workouts,” schedule them first:

    Sample weekly structure:

    • 2 strength training sessions
    • 1 conditioning/cardio session
    • 2 walks (30–45 minutes)
    • Optional: 1 recovery day (stretching or yoga)

    Movement keeps your metabolism active and your mindset strong.


    5. Create a Few Go-To Holiday Strategies

    Here are simple, doable tools:

    ✅ Before a party:

    • Drink a full glass of water
    • Eat protein at home
    • Take Lean to avoid overeating

    ✅ At the party:

    • 1 plate — no grazing (so take only what you really want)
    • Start with protein & veggies
    • Alternate alcohol with Hydrated (another fave is sparkling water with a splash of cranberry)

    ✅ The day after:

    • Walk 20–30 minutes
    • Hydrated in the morning
    • Prioritize protein
    • Get back to routine (no guilt spiral!)

    These tiny habits prevent big regrets.


    You Can Enjoy the Holidays AND Feel Good In Your Body

    You don’t have to choose between fun and health.
    You just need a strategy that supports both.

    With a simple plan, supportive habits, and game-changing tools like Fit, Lean, and Hydrated, you can:

    ✅ stay in control
    ✅ feel energized
    ✅ stay consistent
    ✅ reduce stress
    ✅ avoid holiday weight gain
    ✅ hit January feeling READY

    Don’t wait until New Year’s to get serious.
    Start now, and let this be the season you thrive, not just survive.


    Ready to Go Into the Holidays With a Plan That Actually Works?

    If you want support staying consistent, energized, and in control this season, the Muscle + Metabolic Collection is your holiday advantage.


    This bundle includes:

    Lean – keeps cravings in check
    Fit – boosts energy, lowers cortisol, reduces inflammation, supports metabolism
    Hydrated – restores electrolytes, supports performance

    Together, they help you:

    • Stay consistent even on busy days
    • Avoid holiday weight gain
    • Keep your metabolism active
    • Reduce stress
    • Maintain energy and hydration

    You don’t need more willpower — you need the right tools.

    👉 Grab the Muscle + Metabolic Collection and start your holiday plan today. Your January 1st self will thank you.

    We got this!

    Cheers,

    Denise xo

  • Mid-Year Isn’t the End—It’s a Reset Point

    Can you believe the first half of the year is almost behind us?

    It feels like we were just setting intentions in January, mapping out goals, getting organized, and telling ourselves, “This is my year.” And now here we are… staring down the second half of 2025.

    Maybe life threw you a curveball. Maybe your priorities shifted. Maybe you just lost momentum (we’ve all been there). That doesn’t mean your goals aren’t still worth pursuing, it just means now’s the time to lock back in.

    The second half of the year gives you:

    • 26 weeks of possibility
    • 182 days to make progress
    • Countless chances to show up differently

    It’s not about doing more, it’s about doing what matters. With intention. With clarity. With energy that supports where you want to go, not just where you’ve been.


    Don’t let yesterday take up too much of today, even more importantly, tomorrow! ~Me


    Questions to Ask Yourself Right Now

    If you’re not sure where to begin, start here. Carve out 10 minutes and journal these out:

    • What did I want to create or change this year?
    • What progress have I made (even the small wins)?
    • What’s gotten in my way?
    • What needs to shift in the next 6 months?
    • What do I want to feel proud of by the end of the year?

    The goal isn’t perfection, it’s alignment. It’s choosing to return to your why, even if the how looks different now.


    Let’s Finish Strong—Together (I’m ready!)

    I’ll be sharing more ideas in the coming weeks to help you refocus, reset, and finish the year strong, whether it’s through wellness routines, mindset practices, business clarity, or just showing up for yourself in a more meaningful way.

    But for today, here’s what I want you to know: You don’t have to wait for “perfect timing.” You just have to choose to show up now. One step. One shift. One day at a time.

    We’re in this together, and there’s still so much room to rise. Below is a list of tools to help you kick some real ass the second half of the year.

    🧠 Mindset & Clarity

    • The Five Minute Journal – Simple daily gratitude and goal-setting
    • Insight Timer or Calm App – Guided meditations and breathwork
    • High Performance Habits by Brendon Burchard – A great read or audiobook for momentum

    📅 Planning & Productivity

    • Google Calendar – For blocking focused work, workouts, or rest
    • Asana – Visual task management (great for business + personal projects)

    💪 Wellness & Energy

    • AllTrails App – For finding trails and staying active outdoors (I can’t live without this one!)
    • Make Wellness Peptides – (of course!) to support energy, focus, hydration & recovery
    • MyFitnessPal – For tracking nutrition and movement goals

    📈 Business & Branding

    • Canva – Create stunning graphics, social posts, and promo content easily
    • Flodesk – Simple, beautiful email marketing (great for small business owners)

    🧾 Reflection & Reset

    • Quarterly Goal Review Template (create your own or download a freebie)
    • Whiteboard or Sticky Notes Wall – Sometimes old-school visuals help new ideas flow (this is totally me!)
    • Spotify “Focus” or “Confidence Boost” Playlists – Because music changes everything

    Let’s lock in and finish this year with purpose and intention.

    You with me?

    Denise xo


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  • Navigating Menopause with Strength, Grace, and Grit

    Alright, guys… this might be your cue to exit stage left — no hard feelings. 😉

    Now, for the rest of us….
    Let’s talk about something few of us are or were truly prepared for — menopause. It often arrives unannounced and unapologetic, like a full-force shift you never saw coming. It’s physical, emotional, hormonal — and honestly? A little disorienting.

    But here’s the reframe:
    This isn’t just a phase to “get through.” It’s a powerful opportunity to reconnect with our bodies, shift our mindset, and redefine how we show up for ourselves — stronger, more aware, and in control.

    The Phases: What You Didn’t Learn in Health Class (at least not in my health class)

    Menopause isn’t just one moment — it’s a transition that unfolds in stages:

    • Perimenopause (often begins in your 40s): Irregular periods, hot flashes, mood shifts, and sleep disturbances.
    • Menopause (official when you’ve gone 12 months without a period): A hormonal shift that can affect everything from metabolism to brain fog.
    • Postmenopause (after the 12-month mark): Symptoms may ease, but risks like bone density loss and heart health become more relevant.

    The truth? Every body experiences this differently. But you’re not alone — and you don’t have to just “deal with it.” AND, if your doctor tells you to deal with it, run, don’t walk and find a new OBGYN.


    How to Stay Strong (Even When You Don’t Feel Like It)

    Menopause can feel like your body is working against you. Fatigue, weight gain, muscle loss — all real. But here’s the empowering truth: you can take back control with doable, consistent habits that support your strength and vitality.

    Strength Training Is Non-Negotiable

    As estrogen levels drop, muscle mass and bone density decline — making resistance training essential. Lifting weights 2–4 times per week helps:

    • Boost metabolism
    • Support joint and bone health
    • Improve mood and cognitive function

    You don’t need a fancy gym. Dumbbells, resistance bands, or even bodyweight circuits can build major strength.

    🌿 Check out this article in EatingWell Magazine, “The #1 Habit to Start When You’re in Menopause, According to an OBGYN and a Physical Therapist.”

    Walk Daily… and with a Weighted Vest

    Walking remains one of the most accessible forms of movement — but adding a weighted vest ups the ante:

    • Increases calorie burn
    • Builds bone strength
    • Improves cardiovascular endurance
      It’s also gentle on the joints and a great way to clear your mind.

    Connect with Other Women in This Season

    Menopause isn’t just physical — it’s deeply emotional. Community is medicine. Surrounding yourself with women who get it can:

    • Reduce feelings of isolation
    • Offer tips, resources, and honest conversation
    • Remind you that you’re not in this alone

    Find a circle, group, or even a walking buddy. It matters.

    The Power of Bioactive Peptides

    If you’re looking to support your body from the inside out, bioactive peptides can be a game-changer. They help:

    • Improve collagen production (goodbye joint aches + skin dullness)
    • Weight management the natural way
    • Support lean muscle growth and recovery
    • Regulate inflammation and boost energy
    • Decrease mortality rates of all diseases

    Think of peptides as your secret weapon for navigating this hormonal shift with more ease and vitality. (Head to the Wellness page to learn more about the power of peptides.)


    Final Thoughts: This Isn’t the End — It’s a Reset

    Menopause isn’t something to dread. It’s a powerful rite of passage — a chance to reimagine how you take care of your body, prioritize yourself, and define your next chapter.

    Strong. Powerful. Clear. Connected. That’s the goal.

    And remember: you’re allowed to rewrite the rules on what this season looks like — and feels like.


    🔍 Educational Websites & Tools

    • NAMS (North American Menopause Society)
      Evidence-based info from top menopause experts; find a certified menopause practitioner.
    • My Menoplan
      A symptom-tracking and planning tool built by clinicians to help women navigate perimenopause and menopause.
    • Genev
      Virtual menopause care with health coaches, telehealth, articles, and community forums.

    Make Moves, Live Boldly,

  • If You Knew Tomorrow Would Change Everything, How Would You Live Today?

    January 1st started like any other day. I was out on the trails — doing what I love — feeling strong, hopeful, and excited about everything I had planned for the new year. I was having fun, taking selfies, showing off some of my favorite skincare, soaking in the fresh start that January always seems to bring. In that moment, life felt solid. Safe. Predictable.

    And then, less than 24 hours later, everything changed.

    One misstep.
    One fall.
    One accident that I never saw coming.

    The day after that first picture was taken, I found myself hurt, scared, facing a serious surgery, and unsure of what the next few months — or even the next few days — would look like. Everything I thought I could count on — my routines, my independence, my physical strength — was stripped away in a second.

    And when I look back now at the photos side by side, it almost doesn’t feel real. How can life shift so dramatically between one sunrise and the next?

    It’s a gut punch reminder that nothing is promised. Not our health. Not our plans. Not even our ability to lace up our shoes and walk out the door.

    If you knew your life could change tomorrow, how would you live today? Would you rush through it? Would you waste it on things that don’t matter or people who aren’t worthy of your time or mind space? Would you stay quiet about the dreams that are burning inside you, waiting for the “right” time?

    Or would you wake up?

    Would you say the thing you’ve been meaning to say? Would you finally take the risk? Would you stop waiting for the “perfect moment” to start living fully? Would you finally start focusing on your health and wellbeing?

    I wish I could go back and tell the version of me on January 1st:
    Savor it. Really, truly savor it. Laugh harder. Hug tighter. Trust your strength, but also respect how fragile this life is.

    But since I can’t go back, I can only move forward — differently.
    Wiser.
    Softer.
    More awake to the small, beautiful details of every day.

    The truth is, life will change. We just don’t get to choose when.

    But we do get to choose how we live right now.

    And today, I’m choosing gratitude. I’m choosing courage.
    I’m choosing to live like it could all change tomorrow — because it can.

    If you’ve been waiting for a sign to do the thing — this is it.
    Book the trip. Start the business. Write the book. Lift weights like your life depends on it — because it does. Get outside. Soak in the sun. Chase the moments that make you feel alive. Whatever it is that’s been tugging at your heart, now is the time.

    We can’t control what tomorrow brings. But we can choose to live fully today.

    Make Moves, Live Boldly!

  • Navigating a Fast World on a Slow Path

    I was chatting with a friend and mentioned I was having a tough day. After listening, she encouraged me to write about it. So, her push for me to be open and honest led to this post—a raw reflection of my frustration and reality.

    I never imagined a shattered ankle would be my wake-up call, but life has a way of delivering unexpected lessons. One moment, I was moving effortlessly through my days; the next, I was sidelined, kicked out of my active lifestyle—grappling with anxiety, depression, relying on others for the smallest of tasks, and adjusting to life with a walker, knee scooter, and boot. Suddenly, I was forced to see the world through a completely different lens, confronting the daily frustrations of a society that isn’t designed for those with mobility challenges.

    Imagine going from living independently to carefully strategizing how to get in and out of your own home. Let me tell ya, it sucks! Simple movements become calculated efforts, and every outing feels like an obstacle course. It’s a humbling shift that opened my eyes to struggles so many people face—struggles often invisible in a world built for speed and convenience.

    From the moment I left the hospital, one truth became painfully clear: our society prioritizes efficiency and accessibility, but only for the able-bodied.

    The simplest tasks—getting through a doorway, maneuvering through a store, getting in and out of cars, climbing stairs, cooking, or even navigating sidewalks—become daunting obstacles. True resilience isn’t just about physical strength; it’s about adapting, problem-solving, and pushing forward in a world that often isn’t built for everyone.

    The Everyday Struggles We Don’t See

    Before my injury, I never noticed how difficult it was to find a ramp that wasn’t blocked or how hard it was to navigate a crowded space without feeling like an inconvenience. Now, I have no choice but to experience it firsthand. Doors without automatic openers, uneven sidewalks, narrow aisles, inaccessible bathrooms—barriers I had overlooked were now glaringly obvious.

    I find myself exhausted, not just from the physical strain of getting around, but from the constant mental calculations required to do basic things. And if I, someone with a temporary injury, feel this way, what about those who face these challenges every single day?

    The Fight to Live Fully

    The real flex…despite these obstacles, people with disabilities courageously push forward, building careers, chasing dreams, and making an impact—all while navigating a world that often forgets them. Their perseverance isn’t just inspiring; it’s a testament to the human spirit.

    But should it be this hard? Should people have to fight this much just to live a fulfilling life? Absolutely NOT!

    Slowing Down and Showing Up

    This experience has made me more aware, compassionate, and determined to do better moving forward. Accessibility isn’t just about ramps and wider doorways—it’s about mindset. It’s about slowing down long enough to notice who is being left behind and taking action.

    So, let’s pause. Let’s take an extra few seconds to hold a door, clear a path, offer assistance, or simply acknowledge that not everyone can keep up with the chaotic pace of the world.

    Because if life is moving too fast for us to extend a hand, maybe it’s time to rethink the way we’re moving altogether.

    True progress isn’t just about innovation, but inclusion. The burden of accessibility shouldn’t fall solely on those who struggle—it should be a shared responsibility. If we all take small steps toward awareness and action, we can create a world where no one feels like an afterthought.

    I found this great article: 15 Ways to Show Kindness to People with Disabilities—it offers small but meaningful ways to make a difference. Because the goal isn’t just to help people get by; it’s to empower them to excel.

    As I close, the question I will ask myself as I slowly begin to get my legs under me again: How can I be a better human and help those individuals not just get by, but truly thrive?

    I’d love to hear your thoughts. Drop a comment, and let’s talk!👇🏼


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  • From Someday to Today

    How did I finally get here?

    For most of my career, I played a role behind the scenes—and I loved it. I still do. Writing and creating content have always been my passion. I naturally fell into positions where I ghostwrote and crafted content in others’ voices. And I was good at it.

    But something shifted in 2023.

    I started feeling restless. I was tired of pouring my creativity into work where others reaped the rewards. Now, don’t get me wrong—I don’t say that out of greed or selfishness. I’ve always found joy in helping others shine.

    But then came the epiphany.

    I realized it was time to step out from behind the curtain and take a peek at what else was out there. And you know what? I actually have something to say. I have insights to offer. I have a 40+ year career filled with experiences, lessons, and stories worth sharing. But I needed to believe that. I needed to build the confidence to recognize my own value.

    This past year has been one of discovery—of myself, my voice, and my impact. And as is typical for me, once I commit, I jump all in—often without warning to anyone around me. That’s how I’ve approached every major decision in my life.

    But let me be honest…

    I’ve also mastered the art of procrastination. Maybe you can relate. Sometimes, it’s fear—fear of failure, fear of judgment, fear of the unknown. Sometimes, the vision isn’t fully clear yet. And sometimes, it just feels too damn hard. But here’s the thing: once it all clicks in my mind, I jump.

    Why Do We Keep Putting Off Our Dreams?

    I don’t know about you, but I’ve asked myself this question more times than I can count.

    At the end of the day, we only have so much time—to create impact, to inspire others, to build a legacy. So why do we keep postponing the things that truly fulfill us?

    It’s the million-dollar question.

    And the answer? Just start.

    Benjamin Franklin nailed it when he said…

    “You may delay, but time will not.”

    So if you’ve been waiting for the perfect time to start, stop waiting. Below are four powerful strategies that have helped me push past procrastination and finally move forward.

    1. Start Small and Break It Down

    Big ideas can feel overwhelming, which is why they often stay stuck in the “someday” category. Instead of focusing on the entire journey, break your goal into small, manageable steps. Progress—no matter how small—builds momentum.

    2. Set Real Deadlines (and Hold Yourself Accountable)

    A dream without a deadline is just a wish. I haven’t always been great at this, but over the past year, I’ve gotten better. Set a firm timeline for your goals and, even better, make them public. Accountability is a powerful motivator.

    3. Remove Distractions and Just Start

    Procrastination feeds on distractions. Identify what’s pulling your focus away—social media, endless to-do lists, or fear of failure—and eliminate it. Then, commit to just five minutes of action. Often, starting is the hardest part, but once you do, you’ll keep going.

    4. Stop Waiting for Perfection

    Here’s the truth bomb: No one is expecting perfection from you. The only person demanding perfection is you. So let it go and just do the damn thing!

    If you’ve been feeling that nudge, that stir, that inner voice telling you it’s time—jump.

    Because at the end of the day, what do you really have to lose?

    It’s Your Turn

    So here’s my challenge to you—what’s the one thing you’ve been putting off? The book you want to write, the business you want to start, the career shift you’ve been dreaming about? Whatever it is, take one small step today. Because time isn’t waiting for you. And neither should you.


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